home ♥️

my moms voice

my dads hugs

my siblings roasting me

the unconditional love and support

that’s home


the aftermath

you didn’t say goodbye

it’s nearly been a year

since you’ve been gone

all there is a hole in my chest

that i can’t seem to mend

i watch the tears stream down my face

hoping that somehow you are listening

now im left in the dark

all alone

– xoxo chana

motivation station – why i blog

why do i blog? i blog to

  • i blog to destress
  • i blog to discover my self
  • i blog to lose myself in words
  • i blog to write more
  • i blog to write poetry
  • i blog to make memories
  • i blog to capture moments
  • i blog to discover the unknown
  • i blog to learn
  • i blog to inspire others
  • i blog to be inspired
  • i blog to heal
  • i blog to share my love of writing
  • i blog to express myself

This is one post that I will definitely come back too in the future; especially when I lose motivation or have writer’s block 🙂

why do you blog?

-XOXO chana

another day

its been one of those days

all thats on my mind is – you

i’m sitting here in despair


why you were taken away


if it will ever get easier

as the tears stream down my face

i’m left living through the memory of you

-XOXO chana


shattered self


meant to help one grow and develop

yet you excuse me of changing for the worst

you say I’m different after my trip

all I see is a grown up me

one who has struggled

and grew from pain

you broke me down

shattered me into a million pieces

now I’m sitting here

trying to put myself back together

i’ve tried glue and tape

but nothing seems to work

the only remedy is love

which I have seemed to lost

-XOXO chana

15 Facts About Me


  1. My name is Archana Baleswaran
  2. I am 18 years old.
  3. I am Tamil. Though born and raised in Canada
  4. I am left handed
  5. I suffer from Generalized Anxiety Disorder
  6. I am an introvert
  7. I love to read and write
  8. I am the youngest in my family, with 2 older siblings
  9. I love stationery. On my desk, you can see an abundance of stationery. I am a hoarder ❤
  10. Taylor Swift is my favourite artist
  11. I am not competitive and hate playing sports
  12. My bullet journal is my prized possession
  13. I love making to-do lists
  14. I love tea. tea>coffee
  15. I love having deep and sentimental conversations

appreciation post

This post is dedicated to my parents – my king and queen.

Recently, in June of 2017, I graduated from high school. This could not be possible without the love and support of my family. Especially my parents. These two individuals are what motivate and inspire me to work hard.

My father is the most hardworking person I know. Born and raised in Sri Lanka, my father decided to flee Sri Lanka in his mid 20’s. At that time, Sri Lanka was in the middle of the civil war. He fell in love and wanted a better life for his future family. In order to achieve this, he left his home, family, and friends to come to Canada. Once he arrived, he worked his butt off to be able to sponsor his girlfriend (my mom). Soon, he did so and brought over not my mom but also my uncle and a few family friends. After my mother came to Canada. They got married. At this time my father was working multiple


part time jobs to support his wife. Eventually, they had children which brought my siblings and I into this world. Even to this day, my father works endlessly to support us – his family. He works multiple jobs just to keep his family happy.

Now my mother. She is one the most nurturing people I know. My mom made the decision to become a house wife and take care of her family. This idea stemmed from the fact that her mother was always working. My mom wanted to be there for her children in ways that her mother couldn’t be there for her. She did everything she could for us. From waking us up in the morning, bringing us tea in bed, picking us up from school, cooking meals and spending time with us.


One thing I am certain about is that I would not be the person I am today without my parents. They would sacrifice everything and anything for me. Every day I am grateful that God has given me my parents. Individuals who love and support me and all my crazy decisions. Though I am not going to be a doctor in the future, I hope I make you proud.


-XOXO chana