christmas tag

Hello, again

Day 2 /12 days of Blogmas. Todays post will be a christmas tag that I found from a fellow blogger on wordpress : Sincerely, Searcy. I will link her post here:


  1. What is your favourite Christmas movie? ELF 🙂
  2. Do you open any presents on Christmas Eve? No, my family only opens presents on christmas day.
  3. What is the best part of Christmas? I love spending time with my family and spreading cheer !
  4. Did I believe in the Santa story? Yes, I really believed in Santa when I was younger and I was heartbroken when I found my parents wrapping up my presents early on christmas day.
  5. Would you rather have snow on Christmas or none at all? I love snow and hope for a white christmas every year. Being located in Toronto, makes it possible for a white christmas.
  6. If you were Santa Claus, what type of cookie would you like to be left out on Christmas Eve? Chocolate chip or a sugar cookie
  7. What is the true meaning of Christmas? Giving back to others, spreading love and spending time with loved ones.
  8. When do you start getting excited about Christmas? Canadian thanksgiving is celebrated in October. Once November hits, I am listening to christmas music and begin to get excited for christmas.

I would love to hear your responses to these questions in the comments 🙂

– XOXO chana

Festive Watch List

Hiya everyone and welcome back to my blog!

Today is the first post in my 12 days of Blogmas, where I am posting everyday for the next twelve days. Today I am talking about one of my favourite things to do with the festive season and that is… Christmas movies! I’m sharing my watch list for this holiday season. I will be updating this post as i watch the films and will be leaving a rating. So lets get on with this post.

2020 Holiday Film Watch List

  • Christmas Contract — 10/10
  • Holidate –
  • Elf – 10/10
    • my all time favourite Christmas movie
    • cant wait to watch this again
  • Christmas with the Kranks
  • Love the Coopers
  • The Grinch
  • The Christmas Prince
  • 12 Gifts of Christmas — 6/10
  • Christmas Inheiritance
  • Four Christmases
  • The Holiday
  • A Cinderella Story: Christmas Wish
  • Operation Christmas Drop — 8/10
  • Christmas Prince
  • Christmas with a View
  • The Princess Switch
  • The Holiday Calendar
  • Broadcasting Christmas
  • A Belle for Chrismtas
  • Holiday Joy
  • Let it Snow
  • Santa Girl
  • Christmas Wonderland
  • Christmas Survival
  • The Knight Before Christmas
  • Christmas Wedding Planner
  • Christmas Catch
  • Holiday in the Wild

Note: all the movies listed above can be found on netflix

What movies are on your watch list this holiday season?

– XOXO chana

12 days of blogmas :)

Hello,

Welcome to 12 days of Blogmas here on justmyselfa ! I am SO excited to get started with my festive posts and what better way to get back into blogging than Blogmas. I had been considering doing Blogmas for a while but I decided that I wouldn’t have time to do all 24 posts because of how crazy busy university has been over the past few months. So I made a compromise and have decided to do 12 days of Blogmas instead. That means a new everyday for the next 12 days starting tomorrow ! I love reading other people’s Blogmas posts so if you are taking part this year, make sure to link your posts below. Get excited and come back tomorrow for a new post! Stay safe and happy holidays

-XOXO chana

september check in

Hello loves. I hope you are all doing well during these tough times with corona.

Here in Ontario, we are now entering phase 2 of corona virus. The number of cases have gone up drastically – from the hundreds now to around 500 cases per day. Soon businesses will be shut down inorder to to deal with the high rates of cases. Notably, the number of cases is prevalent in the younger generation now a days. In the early stages of the virus back in March, most cases were in the elderly population.

University

My university has transitioned into fully online classes. However the campus still remains open for those who require a studying space or access the resources available to the students such as the gym. This semester I have decided to take 4 classes all in the field fo anthropology. These courses will help to fulfill my requirements. My favourite course this semester is probably human evolution and variation – taught by one of my all time favourite professors Larry Sawchuk. However, staying on top of these online classes have been quite hard. I find my self sleeping in and having to rely on the recorded lectures. At the start of the semester I was motivated for school to begin and even went school supplies shopping with a dear friend of mine. I picked up a few notebooks but I find my self relying on my laptop for notes becuase it is easier and isnt time consuming. But eventually I will be rewriting my notes out to put those notebooks to use.

Personal Life

I find my self relying on my immediate family and just a few friends nowadays. One of my best-friends recently stopped speaking to me so I have just been healing from that. My mother asked about her the other day and I had to lie to her because I didn’t want to deal with what she would say. But I am grateful for the people who are currently in my life and find my self not dwelling on the past so thats good :). As for a job – I am currently on the hunt. I recently updated my resume and have applied for a few jobs. I am aiming to find a job relating to health care as it relates to the field I am studying right now.

Side Hustle

This year I launched Kanapathi Creations – it was originally meant to store all my artistic creations. But I have recently picked up the skill of doing digital portraits and have opened up shop for commissions. To see all my past work check me out on Instagram/@kanapathicreations. I will be hosting a giveaway soon to commemorate me reaching 100 followers

Whats been going on in your life ? I would love to hear in the comments 🙂

-XOXO chana

longer

they all call you names 

but I still think of all your best qualities 

selfless. caring. loving. trustworthy 

you engraved your name in my heart 

and slowly slipped away 

if I knew that night in February, 

would be the last time seeing you 

I would have 

stayed out longer

hugged you harder

admired your face longer 

held you closer longer

-XOXO chana

brown skin girl

Growing up, I always felt different from the rest of my family. little did they know the lack of self confidence I faced. 

One anecdote that my parents tell others when they talk about having me is this one. After giving birth to me, I was placed in a box away from my parents. When they finally got to see and hold me I appeared different than I had at birth. My mom immediately told my dad this is not my child – this is someone elses. I had deep dark melanin enriched skin with curly hair. My mom didnt believe I was her daughter. 

My mom says that I get my melanin enriched skin from her father – my grandpa. Growing up in a household with individuals with lighter skin I suffered from lack of confidence. I didn’t look like my immediate family. I looked different and the feeling of indifference stayed with me for majority of my life. 

I had rich brown skin – the only people I felt related to in a sense were people in the movies and tv shows. I was dark skinned and couldn’t relate to anyone in my immediate life.

My insecurities with my skin made me want to hide out and led me to cover up every inch of my body. Even in the summer heat I wore long pants and a sweater. 

As a child, I was bullied by classmate for the colour of my skin. They would make jokes about me and my skin – they made comments like “ if we turned off the lights, we wouldn’t be able to see you”, “your black”, “you got darker than usual”. They didn’t realize at the time but these comments hurt my confidence and would worsen my levels of self esteem. 

Eventually, high school rolled around and by then I embraced by dark, melanin enriched skin. I decided I wouldn’t let others affect my self esteem. I finally started to love myself and my dark skin.

Have you suffered from lack of confidence and self esteem? I would love to hear about it in the comments

-XOXO chana

dear diary pt.3

Dear Diary,

Lately I feel like my life has been flipped upside down. Everything has been going wrong. I’ve been feeling more anxious and slightly depressed. My bestfriend stopped talking to me and I don’t know what I did wrong. She slowly faded out of my life and is now avoiding me. It feels as if no one stays present in my life – they leave as soon as they get a chance. Maybe my anxiety becomes annoying. Maybe im overthinking it. Maybe its all my fault. Maybe she wasn’t meant to be in my life. Maybe I fucked up. Maybe I pushed her away. Don’t get me wrong – I wish her all the best in her future endeavours but I cant help but wonder what went wrong. Will I ever hear back from her?

-XOXO chana

so you want to start a bullet journal

Here are a few things that I think you should know before you start bullet journaling

  • You don’t need expensive supplies
    • I started off by buying supplies from my local dollarstore and supermarket
    • Stay tuned for a blog post all about my favourite bullet journal supplies
  • You don’t need to stick to the orginal bullet journaling method
    • Put your own spin on it
    • I don’t include the index pages in my bullet journal
  • You don’t have to spend a lot of time drawing creative spreads
    • Do what you feel is best
  • The simpler the spread the easier in my opinion
  • Pick up supplies to help you liven up your spreads
    • Stickers, colourful pens, washitape, pictures, highligthers

So what are you waiting for ? Grab a notebook and start your bullet journal journey 🙂

-XOXO chana