ice cream with waldo

This post includes everything I would tell Waldo if I could talk to him again.

If I were to have ice cream with you; we would be talking for hours on end. We would be sitting at Lingam Cool Bar enjoying their delicious ice cream.

There is so much I need to tell you. Every day you’re gone just gets harder. Knowing your gone hurts but that doesn’t stop me from talking to you. I talk to you in my dreams, on bus rides- practically any chance I get.

First and foremost, I regret not telling you one thing when you were here with us on earth. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. Every day I regret not letting you in on this secret. Your support and guidance would have given me the motivation that could last a life time.

In April, I decided to open up about this to extended family, such as your brother and my entire school. I ended up doing a Ted Talk in front of my entire school. I spoke about my anxiety, gratitude and you <3. It was such a great experience. I hope you were looking down on me that day. My only wish is that I made you proud, Waldo.

I know that you told me to go to prom and that was my intention. But unfortunately, that didn’t happen. I had bought my dress and paid for my ticket but ended up not going. Why ? you may ask. That was because of drama in my friend’s group and the loss of a friend. But luckily, your girl helped me through it and made me feel better.

Now University. I got accepted into all seven programs I applied to 🙂 And got into my top choice ❤ I want you to know that I couldn’t have done it with out the support and motivation that you have given me. You have always been there when something amazing happened to me. And it hurts that you won’t be here for future moments. I love you more than you know dude ❤

-XOXO chana

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the big one – eight

I turned 18 last month! I can finally vote and buy lottery tickets. Time flew by so fast. 18 years have gone by and I still am struggling to get by.

Though my life is not all sunshine and rainbows, it has been fairly alright. I especially need to thank my parents and siblings. I would not be the person or where I am today without them. In my lifetime friends have come and gone, but the one constant in my life has been my family. They are my best friends, my support system, my heart, and soul.

As they say, old is gold. I have come to realize that though growing up sucks, its one of the most beautiful parts of life. We must embrace it.

Cheers to a new chapter ❤

– XOXO chana

P.S – Just look at this birthday cake 🙂

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Current Favourites

Hi everyone, it is time for my current favourites. This list entails everything I have been loving from the past couple of months.

Tim Hortons Iced Lattes

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This has been my go to drink at Timmies for the past couple of months. I am so glad Tim Hortons decided to add this to their menu. Their lattes are available in2 flavors, caramel, and mocha 🙂

The Ranch

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This TV show is a feel good and up lifting tv show! I finished 2 seasons in 5 days.

Samika Vlogs

This family is the cutest! I have been watching them for the past 3 years and I love every second of their videos 🙂

What products or things have you been loving?

-XOXO chana

gone

I showed how much I cared

Yet you called me crazy, annoying

And sensitive

I thought you were my friend

But you dropped a bomb on me

And left

Now I’m sitting here in silence

Trying to move on

From the damage you caused

-XOXO chana

Summer Bucket List

It’s finally summer, and schools out 🙂 I cannot wait for long summer nights with good people. There is so much I want to do this summer. Typically, each summer I mentally take note of things I want to do. But unfortunately, I do not act on it. This year I have decided to tap into my love for lists and make a summer bucket list.

Let’s get ready for summer seventeen 🙂

Summer 2017 Bucket List:

  • Visit an Art Gallery
  • Go to Snakes and Lattes
  • Take Pictures at Graffiti Alley
  • Go Hiking
  • Visit a Vintage/Old Bookstore
  • Try N2 Icecream
  • Try Thai Rolled Icecream
  • Try Sweet Jesus
  • Visit National Parks in Ontario
  • Go to Albion Falls
  • Go on a Road Trip
  • Make Homemade Icecream or Frozen Yogurt
  • Go Star Gazing
  • Read 8 Books
  • Visit a Boardwalk
  • Try New Resturants
  • Watch the Sun Rise
  • Have a Bonfire
  • Have a BBQ
  • Watch a Movie at a Drive-In
  • Go Mini-Golfing
  • Create a Scrapbook / Get Pictures Processed
  • Have a Netflix Marathon Day
  • Tye Dye a Shirt
  • Complete a Puzzle
  • Create a Summer Playlist
  • Do a DIY Project\
  • Make Iced Tea
  • Have a water balloon fight
  • Send a Message in a Bottle
  • Take a Picture Everyday

Over time, if I come up with anything else I’ll be sure to update the list. At the end of summer, I will update you guys on what I have checked off on my list 🙂

Here’s to an awesome summer with great people 🙂

What’s on your summer bucket list?

-XOXO chana

broken

a friendship

meant to last a lifetime

13 years strong

yet you betrayed

the thread of trust you broke

sits in my hands

emitting piercing thoughts into my brain

all you are is a delusion,

a monster

a deception

a blessing turned to a curse

leaving behind a stranger

-XOXO chana

 

 

one last time

 

my soul aches to hear your voice

craving the words of all

you haven’t said

settle down your thoughts

and let the words stream

from your mouth

for one last time

-XOXO chana