how do I sleep at night

amma – 

how do I sleep at night 

knowing he left me 

so easily 

am I going to be alright 

how do I move on?

amma –

will this feeling pass?

-XOXO chana

meet me

meet me at midnight

at the spot we first held hands

6 months sober

from your intoxication

no need for AA

because I got my gyals


you’ve had plenty of time

to own up to your mistakes –

apologize for your actions

reconcile what we had

yet each night

your probably with your bois

doing stupid shit


meet me at midnight

one last time

— XOXO chana

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end.

with every 

passing day 

i lose a piece of myself 

surrounded

by chaos 

and destruction 

the weary path 

i walk 

is leading me astray 

i’m left

drowning in my thoughts 

hoping it all 

e n d s

-XOXO chana

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¿ f o r e v e r ?

you were once

my everything

my light on a gloomy day

i remember

our late night chats

about our future

we talked about ‘ f o r e v e r ‘

everything is

sinking in now

the person I once

wanted to come home to

is now a

distant memory

of the past

-XOXO chana

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breaking barriers

i tore down my wall

wore my heart

on my sleeve

only for you

to come around and

shatter my heart

into a million pieces

i’m left trying to

piece my heart back together

but how do you mend a shattered heart ?

maybe the only remedy

is your love

-XOXO chana

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what not to say to someone with anxiety

Having been diagnosed with anxiety for a couple years now, i’ve come to realize that many individuals seem to brush off anxiety. Many individuals have said certain words to me that I have taken to heart and caused me to cut them out of my life. Cutting out people who don’t seem to understand the underlying processes of anxiety has been for the best. So with that, I encourage to y’all to consider whether or not certain individuals are meant to have a place in your life. Below are some things that I think shouldn’t be said to anyone with anxiety or even any mental illness.

  1. Its all in your head
  2. Get over it
  3. Calm down
  4. Others are suffering from something much worse than what you are going through
  5. You need to learn to push through
  6. Your overthinking it
  7. Theres nothing to worry about
  8. I don’t see why you are anxious
  9. Maybe you should stop thinking about it
  10. Stop stressing

For those of you who have ever said any of theses things to someone with anxiety, I encourage you to reconsider whaat you have said. These words that seem like nothing to you, acutally worsens the state that someone with anxiety is going through. Think before you speak.

-XOXO chana

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grounded

depression and anxiety

go hand in hand

like 2 peas in a pod

the endless mood swings

leading to suffocation

from the thoughts in my head

the monster is feeding

off my joy

somehow

i’m reminded thats its all in my head

4 individuals keep me grounded

-XOXO chana

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fake

friends turned

gossips

was all you were

breaking down people

critiquing their flaws

for your own benefit

with little thoughts

of sympathy

fake is all you are

-XOXO chana

 

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one last time

 

my soul aches to hear your voice

craving the words of all

you haven’t said

settle down your thoughts

and let the words stream

from your mouth

for one last time

-XOXO chana

 

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